Our life has been upside down now for 6 days but we received the greatest gift out of all of it. Many of you have asked for the story, so...bare with me becausse it's a long one.
I have been having gall bladder problems for about a month and a half now. They determined that I had "gall sludge" and that the best thing was to be careful of what I ate and then after the baby came, get it out. I haven't had any major pains from my gall bladder since then until last week. The first time I went in, they hooked me up to a fetal monitor to watch the baby as well, gave me a GI cocktail and when things were ok, sent me home. Last week, I had major pain again at about 9 at night. I went to the emergency room, got a GI cocktail again but wasn't hooked up to a monitor and was sent home, feeling better.
Monday, December 19th, I woke up at 2 a.m. with horrible pain. Not the worst I've had but not good either. I couldn't lay down, I couldn't lean on anything, nothing could touch my back...everything just hurt. At the time I wasn't sure if I was making a stupid decision or not but I decided to wait until 8 to go to my own doctor who knew my history and all about my pregnancy and who I trusted most with mine and the baby's care. So it just meant a few hours of pain, but do-able.
I went in to Dr. Morgan's and found out one of my problems was I was dehydrated. They hooked me up to an IV, took blood samples, and eventually hooked me up to a fetal monitor. As Dr. Morgan checked the printout, he said it wasn't a very good reading. The baby wasn't keeping her heart rate at the level it needs to be and there weren't as many peaks and valleys as there should be. They have a tool that shocks or vibrates my belly and the baby hardly moved at all and her heart rate really didn't do anything! He had concerns about this and about my blood test showing signs of blood not getting to my liver (or something like that, I don't fully understand the billy rubin deal they talked about) and sent me down to the radiologist for an ultrasound to check on the baby. By this time, my hubby was there with me and our worries were getting...unbearable!
Apparently they watch the baby for 30 minutes on this ultrasound and measure all movements on a point system. She has been very active but in that 30 minutes, the only movement we saw was her bend her wrist. The highest score they can get is 10...the baby got a 2. I walked from the ultrasound room, to the restroom, to my dad's office for about 1 minute, turned to head back to Dr. Morgan's office because he wanted to talk with us once the results of the ultrasound came back and I was stopped in the hall by a nurse saying, "Dr. Morgan just called and said I'm to check you in." WHAT???? I was hoping someone would explain this, and soon!
By the time I got into a gown, Dr. Morgan came in and said that the problems with the baby were severe, and that we needed to do an emergency c-section...within the hour! GULP!! They would have a NICU team from EIRMC (hospital in Idaho Falls) headed that way for the baby. They were going to put me completely out so as not to waste time with an epidural. All of this was thrown at us so fast that we just stood there in shock. Once it sank in, my hubby and I reduced ourselves to tears. Fear for the baby, fear for me, what was happening, what was wrong, why wasn't she getting more time to grow and become strong. I know that my hubby was reliving some horrible memories and my heart ached to hold me and quiet those fears but those fears were my own and no one was quieting mine...how could I calm his?
I received a blessing and I'll be honest, some calm came from it. Not entirely were my fears pushed aside but I did feel a bit better knowing that I had the priesthood watching over me as well. Surgery, dignity out the window, and at 12:36 Chloe Dawn Wolfley was born weighing 4 pounds, 11 ounces and 17 inches long. Her uncle Chris gave her the nickname of Ta-Da...so fits!
Now I will kind of paraphrase the next few days after that. I stayed in the hospital in SV until Wednesday while my hubby went to Idaho Falls to be with Ta-Da. I felt that she needed to have one of her parents there and since I couldn't do it, I asked my hubby to and like the good man that he is, he went despite his desire to be there with me. I was FINALLY able to rejoin my hubby and my baby girl on Wednesday afternoon and as you can see...
It was a bit emotional for me. Finally she was real to me. I had only been able to see her through an incubator just before she was life-flighted out, and I was still a bit drugged up. But now she was in my arms and so beautiful and perfect, I just smiled and cried over that little girl. The rest is...history!
Daddy's and Mommy's wedding rings on her feet.
I was able to give her her first bath. She squirmed a little through it but for the most part she slept through it all. Please don't mind my outfit. I was admitted to have the gall bladder issues taken care of. Problem was that my duct had been clogged by MANY gall stones and sludge that the blood wasn't flowing through my liver and so I was turning yellow and all the poison bile stuff was going into the baby. VERY SERIOUS!
After I finished washing her body.
I was too nervous to scrub her head so I let the nurse do it.
Daddy holding her for the first time!! He was SOOO excited. She's so tiny next to him.
Loving on my baby.
We decided to get some good pictures with her to share with people when we came home for Christmas. What we didn't know is she had a surprise for us too...
That was the day she decided to open up her eyes for the first time. They are dark blue, like her Daddy's!
From then on she has been wide awake quite often.
On Christmas Eve we went to see her for a short time before we headed home and Daddy held her first this time. He was so excited that he was going to get her first! And I'll tell you what, that girl LOVES the sound of her Daddy's voice. Every time he would talk to her, she'd look around for him and try to focus on him. He started to sing to her and she just cued like crazy at him. I have to admit, it melted my heart.
One proud Daddy!
Now Ta-Da is completely off of oxygen, has drank her full feeding from a bottle and has gotten back to her birth weight. She progresses so much every single day and we are so grateful for that. Sorry if this was long, but there was quite a story to tell of how Chloe Dawn Wolfley joined The Wolfpack!